Hey Gala, it's difficult to get going when you believe that you're not enough.
It's a hard feeling to believe that you're dispensable and anyone can outstage you, that what you know it's not enough, that what you can do it's merely a little part of what everybody else can do.
Some days I just don't think that my efforts are good enough, and that it just doesn't matter y I ever get to finish college, or do something at work.
domingo, 15 de marzo de 2015
sábado, 14 de marzo de 2015
Fatness
You know, Gala, that's a concept that varies a lot. And in good reason, a fat person and a thin one won't have the same definitions of fat.
To me, I'm fat. Not sure if I will ever be able to se myself as a thin person, even if I ever manage to get to the weight I desire.
There are some things that one should never do, to be thiner... So far, I've managed to stay away from those... not sure for how long though, I'm realy getting tired of being fat.
So tired.
To me, I'm fat. Not sure if I will ever be able to se myself as a thin person, even if I ever manage to get to the weight I desire.
There are some things that one should never do, to be thiner... So far, I've managed to stay away from those... not sure for how long though, I'm realy getting tired of being fat.
So tired.
viernes, 13 de marzo de 2015
Rage
You want to know what to do with your rage?
WRITE IT DOWN
http://www.theguardian.com/books/2014/sep/24/terry-pratchett-angry-not-jolly-neil-gaiman
WRITE IT DOWN
http://www.theguardian.com/books/2014/sep/24/terry-pratchett-angry-not-jolly-neil-gaiman
Changes
How hard can it be to change?
How hard can it be to reinstate myself in the world and accept my life the way it is?
After all this time, all the things I've lived, and said, and did, they haven't made me who I am, they have un-made me. My life keeps passing by because there's no way to avoid it and I'm not yet the coward I need to be to end it.
But there's no emotion. No will. No nothing.
Some days I wake up and feel better, Some days I wake up and I want to quit the world forever. But I can't. I've got a little girl that needs me and a husband that I will stay alive for because I don't want to die without him.
I need to get better. I HAVE to get better. I've got to change.
This is the first entry of my new diary, I will make one everyday to keep up a record of what's going on in my mind. And I will name it Gala, because that's the character I want to become.
I've let everything slip through my fingers, my life, my hobbies, my carreer. It's time to reach out and grab them again.
And I'll do it for her. I'll do it for Isabel.
How hard can it be to reinstate myself in the world and accept my life the way it is?
After all this time, all the things I've lived, and said, and did, they haven't made me who I am, they have un-made me. My life keeps passing by because there's no way to avoid it and I'm not yet the coward I need to be to end it.
But there's no emotion. No will. No nothing.
Some days I wake up and feel better, Some days I wake up and I want to quit the world forever. But I can't. I've got a little girl that needs me and a husband that I will stay alive for because I don't want to die without him.
I need to get better. I HAVE to get better. I've got to change.
This is the first entry of my new diary, I will make one everyday to keep up a record of what's going on in my mind. And I will name it Gala, because that's the character I want to become.
I've let everything slip through my fingers, my life, my hobbies, my carreer. It's time to reach out and grab them again.
And I'll do it for her. I'll do it for Isabel.
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